Truth is...I was back on the dating scene, but my new guy had a little problem….He did not like the fact that my child’s father and I wasn't so pleasant with each other (arguing, fussing and “cussing). So because I enjoyed his company I worked extremely hard to eliminate a lot of the negative vibe that happened between us. Not only was I a fan of my new beau but my son took a liking to him and he for Landon. Finally I felt a sense of happiness and I could see a little light at the end of the tunnel. Now, there was one thing that I was not fond of… he was still in school and I knew the long distance would probably be an issue, but why focus on that when happiness was right in front of me.
Christmas was here and I was so excited about the gift giving for Landon! So many were fond of this little boy of mine so he received and overabundance of gifts from my family and his dad. Now in my opinion his daddy could have kicked in a little more…”Oh, yall did not ask for my opinion huh” LOL! But of course I was just being “Petty Patty”! Now his dad had the option to come in and opened the gifts with his son but my previous actions and attitude made him think long and hard added with a “No Thank Ya”…. Now listen, I was trying to change but he was judging me from my prior behavior not giving me a chance (Now don’t ever get it twisted I can still go off if necessary....lol!)
This new leaf I was trying to turn over had me allowing Landon to begin his visits back with his father, but of course there was no structure or disciplined or rules to follow. Trying to show him respect I wanted the new boyfriend to meet Landon’s father so that he would not worry about being disrespected as Landon’s dad, but his actions showed that he could care less about what male figure was around his son. His actions pissed me off because he seemed so unconcerned about his son. The conversation went more like this
Him: “Sue shut up” I could care less about some guy you are dating. I don't care about that man as long as he don't hurt my child. And that was the end.
My boyfriend and I had a good relationship but there was one thing, his mom did not like the fact that I had a child. He tried to ease my thoughts about his mother’s opinion telling me that he didn't care what she thought but I knew that was a lie because if he couldn’t respect his mother’s opinion then that would be a “sneakpeak” on what he thought about mine. So I knew her opinion matter…THAT was his momma! So here I go again with the questions to myself; why me? Why can't I be happy? What am I doing wrong?
He tried to insure me that everything was going to be OK and I tried to trust that until my son and I was disrespected to the 5th degree!
And now I am seeing REEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDD
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